
I say "we're okay" or I say "Hanging in there." I ask "How about you?" and get more of the same. Because what can you say. Can you say "Me? I fantasize about how I could just kill myself if I had to, and I lie to my psychiatrist when she asks me if I have thoughts like that.
I have to keep my days simple, because any stress at all would trigger
me to stay in bed, have fraught nightmares, or cry and have a panic
attack. I can make it...