tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-40605116185098673002024-03-19T00:37:23.863-04:00Diary of a LOW BUDGET SuperheroMichelle DiPoala knows a lot about The Brady Bunch.@SuperLowBudgehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13260090440210382714noreply@blogger.comBlogger667125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4060511618509867300.post-31634232058005973332020-11-24T11:55:00.001-05:002020-11-24T11:59:28.477-05:00Day After Day After Day<p></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEghyphenhyphenNycREC5v50RXApqAig2oE2eWG231PbEyjnBrk4fn-2xuKmReCWpr72S3mliIR7rs4RPIuOkDcPGvYvuCv81DGCiKZXNLm7F117EvOM6L43HRe-KUBM9NujwiMhHxBaXBkfgSmU2RpM/s265/sad.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="265" data-original-width="217" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEghyphenhyphenNycREC5v50RXApqAig2oE2eWG231PbEyjnBrk4fn-2xuKmReCWpr72S3mliIR7rs4RPIuOkDcPGvYvuCv81DGCiKZXNLm7F117EvOM6L43HRe-KUBM9NujwiMhHxBaXBkfgSmU2RpM/s0/sad.jpg" /></a></div><br />My husband and my therapist are both encouraging me to try and write something. My brain doesn't want to do it. Log dreams, my husband said this morning after I woke up from a particularly fraught dream. Log your moods, my therapist says, wanting me to remember that I have good days. <p></p><p>I'm struggling. I don't find joy in anything. I'm having a hard time even putting these words in a row. I mark days by when I can next sleep. I mark weeks by Sundays when I fill my pill boxes with the medication that I take each morning and each bedtime. I can't focus on a book so I can't really read. I wish I could order up a new brain and have this one replaced. It's broken. </p><p>It's 11:47 and I'm still in my nightgown and drinking my morning coffee. I got up late and I need a shower. I will probably take a shower. Maybe I'll do the laundry. Every day is a struggle. My brain just doesn't work.<br /></p><p>The dream I had was, as usual, a workplace-related nightmare. I was somewhere on a business trip without any money to get home. I thought, in the dream, that if I leave right now, I could cash in the rest of the nights I'm supposed to stay at the hotel and get a credit for the trip home. That isn't a thing but in nightmares, nothing has to make sense. So I try to gather the required paperwork together. I find myself on this boat, and I'm trying to collect all my things and sort out paperwork, only the boat is rocking so hard that everything is flying everywhere, including me. I grab ropes so I don't fall overboard. I end up underneath a tarp just in time to see two men and a woman arrive, and I understand they're villains of some kind. I hide. I'm still hiding when the boat flips over and then I'm struggling with the tarp so that I don't get tangled in it and dragged down beneath the water. I wake up feeling like I'm drowning.∎</p>@SuperLowBudgehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13260090440210382714noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4060511618509867300.post-87684193918601165372020-07-29T20:51:00.002-04:002020-11-04T18:18:08.888-05:00What Do You Say To "How Are You"?<div>
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I say "we're okay" or I say "Hanging in there." I ask "How about you?" and get more of the same. Because what can you say. Can you say "Me? I fantasize about how I could just kill myself if I had to, and I lie to my psychiatrist when she asks me if I have thoughts like that. <br /></div>
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I have to keep my days simple, because any stress at all would trigger
me to stay in bed, have fraught nightmares, or cry and have a panic
attack. I can make it through a day fine until I have to "do" something.
I can go a few days without showering because I never go outside,
because there are too many people. "It's Peoply out," I used to text Joe
when I came back from a doctor's appointment or therapy session, which
were the only reasons I would leave the house, and that was before all
this COVID-19 stuff. Now I have telehealth doctor's appointments. I
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Daytime. I sit and sew, or do a crossword puzzle, watch TV or draw in my sketchbook. I can't always draw, so it makes me happy when I feel the urge and can actually focus on something for a little while. Right now I have a full page going that's a great many tiny little faces in a crowd, so I am drawing all kinds of people. It's weird that I'm drawing a crowd. Crowds are one of my problems. In the before-times, I would let one or even two busses pass me if I thought they were too full. On those occasions where I HAD TO get on the bus because otherwise I'd be late to my appointment, I would keep repeating "you're fine, you're fine" and keep my mind focused on anything other than the press of bodies against me. Unfortunately "focus" is kind of my biggest problem right now. I can't focus. I can't focus on anything. I tried a couple of times to follow a new recipe to mix it up in the kitchen, and I'm finding it impossible to maintain enough concentration to follow a recipe. Reading is right out, except for tweet-and-post sized nuggets. Writing comes and goes. Sometimes I can smoke a little weed and downshift into a mode where my brain is, yes, racing a bit but I can keep up with it and do some free writing. That is what you are reading right now. </div>
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How I am is scared. There's a highly contagious possibly deadly virus. Socially and politically the world is on fire. At night my dreams are showing me all manner of stressful workplace-related situations. There is always an emergency, I am always the one who has to solve it, and I never know what I am supposed to do. These dreams are different from last year's dreams--those were me alone in a hoarders-looking-room in the dark and I'm desperately searching for something while I know that outside the door are a house full of people waiting for me. I cannot leave the room no matter how hard I try and I can't find what I need among the boxes and tables piles with stuff. These new dreams are filled with people and it's my responsibility to take care of everyone. Sometimes real people are there and have words. My old bosses. I hate these dreams. </div>
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I can say that I am happy about one thing, and that's that I get to spend this much time at home with Joey.
We make art and music and radio playlists, and we play board games.
Interesting thing about that is I'm not a "board game person" and if you
don't know any of those, find some because every Board Game Person that
I know leads an interesting life. I'm not saying YOU aren't leading an
interesting life. I'm sure many non-BGP have perfectly interesting
lives. But I am saying that <i>every </i>BGP does. Joe is a BGP but,
when he couldn't get me into Risk, Axis & Allies or Star Wars
X-wing, he made it a mission to find games I'll like, and he did it.
Hive, Tiny Epic Quest, Carcassone and Forbidden Island are the four board
games he's found so far that I like. It's a low-stress way to spend time
together while such thing is perpetual. He'll take a break from his
work laptop to play a quick game. It refreshes him, and gives me
something to do for twenty minutes. At night we'll play a longer game. These can be tiring for me but I do it because I get to spend this time with Joey. </div>
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Joe is my rock. I don't know what I'd do without him. He tells me I'm doing great, he tells me he loves me. I braid his hair and rub his shoulders. I thank God every day for this life. That's how I am, I guess. I am thankful. </div>
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@SuperLowBudgehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13260090440210382714noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4060511618509867300.post-294455690624543562020-07-23T19:26:00.001-04:002020-07-23T19:26:20.238-04:00Amy Winehouse died 9 years ago today<table align="center" cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" class="tr-caption-container" style="margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto; text-align: center;"><tbody>
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<i>Michael Marotta</i><br />
It's weird that my cat doesn't know what Europe is.<br />
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<i>@vexedinthecity</i><br />
Is cereal, technically, considered a breakfast soup?<br />
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<i>Sean Drinkwater</i><br />
Are Burritos why we were put on this planet?<br />
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I've had a few ambitions. I think I found a new one. I just want to grow up to be Christopher Walken-ish.<br />
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The word "if" is weird. Say it out loud a few times and look at how it's spelled.<br />
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LMNOP is truly the party zone of the alphabet<br />
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If people that use reddit are called redditors, shouldn’t we call people that use 4chan 4chancelors?<br />
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How long is it acceptable to wear the same pair of socks? Asking for a friend.<br />
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I would like to hold an armadillo<br />
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Cobra Commander was the Barney Fife of evil cartoon bosses<br />
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Is Raffi Jonathan Richman for kids, or is Jonathan Richman Raffi for adults?<br />
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why don’t women talk about hot sauce as often as men do?<br />
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polar bears poop on an ice hill and watch it slide into the ocean@SuperLowBudgehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13260090440210382714noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4060511618509867300.post-84072302330316096112020-07-16T21:20:00.002-04:002020-07-16T21:20:40.976-04:00Tee Shirt: Allston Rat City<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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<br />@SuperLowBudgehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13260090440210382714noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4060511618509867300.post-86104115579726153292020-07-03T22:08:00.001-04:002020-07-07T00:01:31.723-04:00There's Something About X (Clever Subtitle Here)<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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If I could write a book it would be about why members of Generation X are the way we are, and it would *be packaged like a Trapper Keeper. It would be a three-volume encyclopedia of X, and it might even have a coloring book in the back pocket. It would be called <b>There's Something About X (Clever Subtitle Here)</b>, by the blogger known as Low Budget Superhero (<i><span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">@SuperLowBudge</span></i>).<br />
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In my book if I could write a book my thesis would prove that Generation X represents and embodies a massive turning point for humankind. A tide has turned with X. The world is forever changed and maybe there's something truly terrifying about it. We are history in a much larger way than, say, one might refer to "The Beat Generation." Oh, so much more so, and I would explain how and why. <br />
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Generation X is changing things in another way, in that X departs from the age-old definition of "generation" and remakes the entire idea of what a "generation" means, so there'll be a lot about the details that in my book, if I could write a book. I have stories. Personal stories, defining references to pop culture and other key images that bind a generation, maybe the last generation in a certain way. The book would be about what happened to us in the fifty-or-so strange years between 1970 and 2020, give or take half a decade at either end. <br />
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In my book if I could write a book there would be a lot about how weird we are, and why Generation X brains are wired <i>so </i>weird. I would explain in real terms, no fancy language. Warts and all.<br />
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Here's something to consider. Think about the arc of our technology. Think about phones alone! Generation X was the last generation to possess an actively tactile memory of making a call on old desk or wall phones. To know the feel of the weight of the receiver in your hand, the springy coiled phone cord that threatened to clothesline passers-by. The heft of the dial mechanism as you stuck your finger and the exciting zzzzing as it twirled. I loved calling people with 9s in their numbers. <br />
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Technology is one of the things that binds us to the younger generations. My niece regularly sends me video greetings or texts. She's eight and we're on the same tech. She keeps in touch with her grandparents in Florida! Imagine that for us! That was not the case for us when WE were the kids. MY grandparents were absolutely flummoxed by the simplest tech. All their VCRs blinked 12:00. My grandmother marveled over the little buttons on my school calculator. These days, whole families keep in contact on their phones, and Follow each other on social media.<br />
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<b>In bold type, Gen X went from analog to digital in a blur of fifty weird years. I think we deserve some freakin' credit. </b><br />
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There's something comforting in that shared experience
of taking a flying leap across a great technological chasm, from childhood when our highest-tech toy was an Etch-A-Sketch to the very first iPads, from wall-tethered telephones that served an entire family, to everyone having a smart phone, even a lot of kids. How old were YOU when you first got rights to partake of the phone? We remember waiting until after 7pm so the rates would go down. We have stories. <br />
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To Generation X, technology advancing rapidly is comforting. We have been part of it. We had a big hand in building
the cloud, and if not directly then indirectly by using it. Anybody remember all those AOL CDs that came in the mail? If you ever popped one of those things, or had an AOL AIM account, you were part of building the cloud, too. Personally my role was more direct. I worked in telecommunications after college. I have stories from the cubicle throughout
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Technology moved <i>fast </i>since our childhood. We climbed the
mountain, we surfed the wave, we sped along the information superhighway
with all the windows open. We optimized for mobile like champs. Ours
was a triumphant<i> grand jete</i> across the great digital divide, and I tell ya, we're doing a pretty good job of keeping up. Some of us have grandchildren already. We understand their technology and adopt it for our own use. Gen X is on Twitch, man. (<i>note: update with whatever's after Twitch</i>)<br />
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There would be a lot about mental illness in the book. <br />
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That's the book that I would write. ∎<br />
*It would not really be a Trapper Keeper. But I would like to do a coloring book.<br />
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<span class="oi732d6d ik7dh3pa d2edcug0 qv66sw1b c1et5uql a8c37x1j muag1w35 ew0dbk1b jq4qci2q a3bd9o3v knj5qynh oo9gr5id hzawbc8m" dir="auto">I'm not working right now because I can't pull myself into the right frame of mind, so to speak. I'm in tatters. My brain broke. Before my brain broke, I worked a lot. I worked A LOT and then I went insane. It took nine years, but what I want to figure out (in therapy every week) is why I stayed in such a toxic situation for so long. They say my nightmares and panic attacks indicate PTSD. I think I did this to myself. I willingly let a small, annoying little man drive me slowly mad, I went insane, and now my life is in tatters. Tatters is where I've ended up. It's almost funny because Tatters is where I began fifty years ago, and it's tatters scattered and strewn fifty years behind. Can this pile of smithereens become a whole Person again? </span><br />
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“Imperfection is beauty, madness is genius and it's better to be absolutely ridiculous than absolutely boring.”
—Marilyn Monroe@SuperLowBudgehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13260090440210382714noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4060511618509867300.post-65076372861514311292020-05-28T22:27:00.001-04:002020-05-28T23:07:57.732-04:00Shhh! Don't Wake the Undertoad. <div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
Today was a therapy day.</div>
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All the windows are open and sending warm breezes. </div>
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Overheard a nearby neighbor who said: "ARRGHHHhaaahh!" </div>
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Now he's singing loud to RUN DMC.</div>
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Me too, buddy.</div>
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Me too.</div>
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<span style="font-family: "Courier New", Courier, monospace;">On July 22, 2008 my friends started to lob "movie spoilers" at each other. Here's the list.</span></div>
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It was a sled.</div>
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It was earth all along.</div>
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He WAS Kaiser Soze.</div>
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He was dead the whole time.</div>
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He's actually Luke's father.</div>
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They shoot the dog.</div>
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She leaves Rick and escapes the Nazis.</div>
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It's people!</div>
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She's a dude.</div>
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His wife's head is in the box</div>
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It was really the Nihilist chick's toe.</div>
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He survives the zombies and is killed by a redneck.</div>
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Meryl Streep lets him keep the kid.</div>
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The hairy-footed short dude drops the ring, the finger attached to it, and the creepy guy into the volcano.</div>
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The jury finds him not guilty.</div>
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His life really was like a box of chocolates.</div>
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He gets off the island.</div>
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Jude Law shoots him in the back.</div>
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He turns back into a kid again.</div>
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The chick is Jesus' grandaughter!</div>
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The indian smothers him with a pillow and jumps out the window.</div>
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He beats the Russian and gives a speech that ends the cold war.</div>
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They couldn't take away his FREEEEEEEEDOMMMMMMM!!!!</div>
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He did not die in that explosion.</div>
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ET goes home.</div>
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Finkle is Einhorn.</div>
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They removed the headstones but left the bodies.</div>
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Although he will never know this due to his short term memory loss, the cop dude is cool and the chick is the one who's fucking him over.</div>
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Max is the head vampire.</div>
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They were cloned by rich people to use their organs.</div>
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He overcomes his water phobia, sails to the edge of the scenery and walks out the door.</div>
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She goes to the prom wearing the ugliest dress ever conceived by mankind, and against all logic ends up with the stuck-up asshole instead of the $weet boy who loved her unconditionally.</div>
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They accept the fact that they had to sacrifice a whole Saturday in detention for whatever it was they did wrong. But, they think you're crazy to make them write an essay telling you who they think they are. You see them as you want to see them: in the simplest terms, in the most convenient definitions. But, what they found out is that each one of them is: a brain . . .and an athlete . . .and a basket case . . .a princess . . .and a criminal.</div>
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WallyWorld's closed.</div>
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Lisa leaves Gary and Wyatt, but they have learned that they are cool all by themselves.</div>
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They say hello to his little friend, but it's not enough to save him.</div>
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@SuperLowBudgehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13260090440210382714noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4060511618509867300.post-83320980575559669912020-05-23T22:43:00.001-04:002020-05-27T14:19:55.919-04:00Three Ghost Stories<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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When I was sixteen, we lived in the middle of the woods in a super tiny town in an 1860s house. The whole town was haunted, if you ask me. One day, my girlfriend Renee rode her bike over with her Oujia Board. Dead serious, we were meeting after school for this dead serious ghost session and we were both like, totally dead serious about it...that is how we sounded. Well, it <i>was </i>serious in the sense that we weren't merely fooling around with the Oujia board. We actually had a specific spirit in mind—the one my mom had recently seen. Apparently, on returning back to bed one night after investigating a strange noise she heard outside, my mom startled a ghost in her bed. The figure she saw was a tall woman in white pajamas, who leapt back from the bed to squat down with her back against the wall. My mom made a specific point to say that this woman's knees were drawn up to her chin, and that she gripped them like she was protecting herself. The woman's eyes were wide open and full of fear. That's the last thing my mom remembers before falling back to sleep. Renee asked the Ouija Board, "What is your name?" The planchette spelled out "R U I N." We never did it again and my mom is still mad we messed around with a Ouija Board. Renee and I are both ruined, now that I think of it. In different ways. Sorry to bum everybody out. I should call her.<br />
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My second ghost story is thirdhand. My aunt tells a story about seeing the faint figure of a woman out in the back field of a house where she was staying as a guest. <a href="https://superlowbudge.blogspot.com/2012/10/spirit-in-south-ghost-story.html" target="_blank">I relate that story elsewhere.</a> That's a good one. It's safe to read it, nobody gets ruined in that one.<br />
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My third ghost story is more personal. Last year, the Boston music community lost Asa Brebner, a friend and downright rock star who everyone adored, every last scruffy, dastardly inch of him. Asa was the kind of guy whose stories are better than fiction, and he'll grudgingly tell them if you ask him. "Everybody knows all this stuff," he grumbled when I interviewed him. "For the younger readers," I implored. I meant myself. I didn't know any of the stories, Asa was a good twenty years my senior and had seen it all. I love his music. I bought every single record. I wish I had found the money to buy one of his art pieces. Asa painted and made interesting wall art out of old guitars, Barbie dolls and toys, which he glued together and painted. I've donated some items for the projects, like a bunch of extra Barbie doll legs I had laying around (my pieces use the tops, I didn't need the legs). I love Asa's work. His pieces are gorgeous. Asa left this mortal coil suddenly in March 2019, to the great shock and grief of the entire Boston music community. Asa's send-off was held in a pretty big local theater, with bands preforming songs from Asa's vast discography of roots rock and America. When I logged in for a ticket, it was sold out. I shook my head: Oh, Asa. You always wanted shows to be earlier in the day. They'd do better, you wrote in a blog piece titled, if I'm not mistaken, "Fear of Late." You wrote that it was an affliction that all your friends have and that condition keeps them from coming out to your plentiful rock shows. I have the fear now, too, old man. One day in the spring of last year, several months after Asa died, I was in my kitchen and I felt him. Just for a few seconds, out of nowhere in the middle of the day, I smelled him and felt him there. I even felt drawn to the back part of the kitchen, in front of the back door. When his scent drifted away, the feeling went away too. But I felt really really serene all of a sudden. Just a quiet, deep kind of peaceful serenity. "Asa," I whispered, kind of mysty-eyed. I wasn't scared. It felt good. I feel so honored to have gotten that goodbye. There'll never be another Asa Brebner. ∎<br />
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to make the point to the 5th grade teacher that assigning word count is
a crime against writing. "So a page?" I had asked. "Five. Hundred. Words," Mr. Flaherty replied icily. I thought the idea was ludicrous but said nothing further. If he wanted 500 words exactly, I figured I'd save him some work by numbering each word. </span><br />
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The first thing I want everyone to know about Generation X is that we are weird. The reasons we are weird will become clear to you the longer you read <i>Diary of a Low Budget Superhero</i>.∎@SuperLowBudgehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13260090440210382714noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4060511618509867300.post-82861625063857465312020-05-18T19:09:00.000-04:002020-05-18T21:16:24.697-04:00Monday Afternoon<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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<b><span style="color: purple;"><span style="font-size: large;">1</span></span></b> I gave myself a new short, flippy haircut this weekend. I was going for Charlize Theron but it came out a little Elizabeth Warren. It'll grow out in a few months to look like what my friend Jenny calls my "real estate portrait." Maybe the next time I go short, I'll buzz one side. I always think I'll do that, but then I think about the in-between time, what's it like growing THAT out? Don't you look deranged for quite a long time? What do you do? I suppose you have to start by buzzing the whole head. That would be a major disaster. I will look like an extra in One Flew Over The Cuckoo's Nest, the all-female reboot. Oh it's coming. You know that's coming. Tilda Swinton. I'm calling it now.<br />
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<b><span style="color: purple;"><span style="font-size: large;">4</span></span></b> I cleaned the kitchen, TV room and piano room over the weekend. It feels good to have done that. It took two days to do the TV room, not because it was particularly dusty, just because I needed to take a nap part way through the job. I ended up sleeping for three hours. But the next day I finished it, even the floor. I will definitely talk about this accomplishment in therapy this week. Man, dust really collects. If today is Monday, then the last time I dusted was...February,<br />
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<b><span style="color: purple;"><span style="font-size: large;">5</span></span></b> I have a question about <i>The Matrix. </i>It's when Neo has been aboard the Nebuchadnezzar for awhile and Tank first introduces him to the neural uploads. He's in the chair and he's got the jack inserted into his head socket. Tank skips the orientation "boring shit" programs and goes straight to downloading martial arts. Neo says, "Jujitsu? I'm going to learn Jujitsu?" Right after Neo uploads the Jujitsu superpower, he exclaims "Holy shit!" and Tank says "Hey Mikey, I think he likes it." My question is, how does Tank, an original child of Zion, know about the 1970s television commercial for Life cereal that gave pop culture the line "Mikey, I think he likes it"? Did Tank learn about it in passing, like from one of the free'd mind people, maybe another Nebuchadnezzar crew member? Maybe there's a program for in-world-Matrix cereal brands, because at breakfast Mouse says he thinks the single-celled organism cereal tastes like Tastee Wheat, which would mean Mouse is from South Africa. Tastee Wheat is a South African breakfast cereal. Maybe all this is part of the Cereal disc upload. I would like to know how Tank knows about "Hey Mikey, I think he likes it." Does he know about Pop Rocks and Coke too? Also, Life and Tastee Wheat, two cereal references seem like a lot for one movie. ∎<br />
<br />@SuperLowBudgehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13260090440210382714noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4060511618509867300.post-58894987420561984022020-05-17T21:59:00.000-04:002020-05-18T21:59:48.876-04:00Who Art Thou?<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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The art that has impacted your life the most since childhood comprises a whole entire pillar of your adulthood. The sum total of what <i>art </i>you have absorbed accounts for an incredibly important part of Who You Are. It's right there in the name: "Art." Art helps each of us "become,"<span class="css-901oao css-16my406 r-1qd0xha r-ad9z0x r-bcqeeo r-qvutc0"> and by that I mean stories, pictures, plays, television, puppet shows, novels, games, comics, paintings, poems, comedy, song, dance and music. I imagine Hell is a kind of desert where there is no art at all. Not one artist of any kind. I imagine a perpetually beige existence of utter, blank and silent despair. Can you imagine such an existence. ∎</span><br />
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<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiPPPP-zv1R6h6PCSp6kSKSMj4VjxDTWaJP7piBOuCiSNGA3kevFBm9JC4KwrGPrpR14Oxu50w_5k3DvDAitGZlCAtNM9eHXxFiqBe-6JwB6cfGdcrov7QSMLkNuS45eHym8yJF6b6TOr0/s1600/profilewithsomeeffects.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="238" data-original-width="164" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiPPPP-zv1R6h6PCSp6kSKSMj4VjxDTWaJP7piBOuCiSNGA3kevFBm9JC4KwrGPrpR14Oxu50w_5k3DvDAitGZlCAtNM9eHXxFiqBe-6JwB6cfGdcrov7QSMLkNuS45eHym8yJF6b6TOr0/s1600/profilewithsomeeffects.jpg" /></a>Are you sitting down? Because in my experience, people are shocked when I tell them: I cut my own hair. In fact, I'm about to do it again. I've done it hundreds of times. There are Reasons I can do it, but because I do it myself, I had never fully appreciated the tremendous impact on
society hairdressers have! Based on the depths of desperation on social media<i> vis a vis</i>
haircuts, formally genial citizenry are positively freaking out without their hairdressers. It is phenomenal.<br />
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In The <i>Hitchhiker's Guide</i> timeline, Douglas Adams puts hairdressers on Golgafrincham Ark Fleet Ship B with all the business consultants, insurance salesmen and PR executives. I fear Mr. Adams may have made a great error. Hairdressers are not among the less useful citizens of the planet. Hairdressers are, in fact, essential and should be on the same grade as psychotherapists for how much they do to help brighten a person's psyche. One of the things psychotherapists suggest when you're depressed is to get a haircut. Maybe the next generation will combine the disciplines and we'll have a whole person: a Psychotherapy/Hairdressing School combo. Everyone gets to go every six weeks to get a combination haircut/therapy session. In a brave new world such a job would exist. These are the ideas Generation X would vote into reality.<br />
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When I was little, my
mom cut hair at home. In those heady 1970s and 80s, people just opened
up their homes as their business. In those days, you could visit a tidy
ranch house in the suburbs and drop off a prom dress with the area
seamstress. You could sit at a dining room table petting someone else's
dog and have your taxes done. And you could visit some young Sicilian lady's kitchen
and get a hair cut. She'll give you lemonade, and you'll sit in her
paisley kitchen chair that she upholstered herself, with her two grubby
kids seated at the table, a small cute boy and an awkward older girl,
both busily assembling some Woolworth's arts and crafts project and
listening to the adults talk.<br />
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I watched my mother clean her combs and scissors while she had a conversation with her customer about what kind of haircut would commence. I watched as she swept a plastic cape around the person's shoulders and tied it around their neck. With every new head, mom wet-combed hair into sections, holding hair with big clips. With her scissors, she went section-by-section, snipping and trimming. Her jeans pockets held combs and scissors, but her greatest tool was her intuition. People loved her cuts so much. There were people who had real money, who drove sports cars and lived in the woods, who would come all the way to Waterbury, CT to get a JoAnna. And I watched every single cut. Mom held hair straight between two fingers, as the scissors in her other hand went zzzp zzzp zzzp and snippety-snip. I liked when she did layers, long locks of hair falling to the floor. When I was older, I swept up the hair.<br />
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I'll tell you the only two times I visited a salon. Twice in life I got my hair washed and cut. The first time was in Pelham, NY, during college in the early 1990s. I was walking down the sunny street on a nice day, and I had nothing on my schedule, which felt amazing. On a whim, I went into a hair salon and a very gentle man cut my hair. It was okay. Over twenty years later, a college friend gifted me a haircut when we were on a girls' reunion weekend in Savannah, Georgia. Jenny had booked us all time at a salon, and Lisa got me a haircut. Lisa is appalled that I cut my own hair. I was super grateful to Lisa, but the haircut itself didn't make me spin around and sing or anything. That haircut was fine, too. The guy was nice, and talented. I mean, honestly–it was fine. We all had a good time and that's what counts.<br />
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The only person who ever cut my hair in a such a way that made me spin around and sing was my mother. When she cut my hair, I watched her in the mirror she always set up for her customers. She gave me perms, she gave me pixie cuts, she gave me long, shaggy layers. She gave me hair like Dorothy Hamill, Leather Tuskadero and Wendy & Lisa from Prince's band, The Revolution. This went on my whole life until at some point I just took over the task. I probably got help at first, but as far back as I can remember, I could always just kind of do it.<br />
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still have my mental health, had I been a hairdresser. Maybe I should
have pursued salon dreams, only I never had any. My hairdressing talent aside, there's a big caveat: my hair is the real low-budget superhero here. My hair is incredibly forgiving. Heavy and wavy, it'll hold a curl or it'll comb out in long waves. I've done bangs, I've done long layers. I've colored it many dozens of times. It always comes out how I wanted it. I am very lucky. I cannot thank my hair enough. Especially since I am only just-okay in every other measurement of beauty by today's standards, I'm so happy that at least my hair is outstanding. Even when it gets real big in summer, I still like my hair. Thank you, hair. You're my One Thing. <br />
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So I guess what I'm saying is, shout-out to my hair that lets me cut it without the help of a professional hairdresser, but an even bigger shout out to hairdressers, whose absence has really shown what haircuts mean to the mental health of a whole society. During this pandemic, your clientele misses you. What I hope for every hairdresser out there: when this is all over, you enjoy a prosperous, happy life with more respect and more tips than you've ever seen before. ∎<br />
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Joe finished our Boston puzzle today. It's a graphic illustration of the city drawn in black and colored in, bearing names of all the landmark buildings and attractions such as Quincy Market, Faneuil Hall and the State House. <span class="oi732d6d ik7dh3pa d2edcug0 qv66sw1b c1et5uql a8c37x1j muag1w35 ew0dbk1b jq4qci2q a3bd9o3v knj5qynh oo9gr5id" dir="auto"><span class="oi732d6d ik7dh3pa d2edcug0 qv66sw1b c1et5uql a8c37x1j muag1w35 ew0dbk1b jq4qci2q a3bd9o3v knj5qynh oo9gr5id" dir="auto">He finished it so fast. </span></span><span class="oi732d6d ik7dh3pa d2edcug0 qv66sw1b c1et5uql a8c37x1j muag1w35 ew0dbk1b jq4qci2q a3bd9o3v knj5qynh oo9gr5id" dir="auto"></span><br />
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<span class="oi732d6d ik7dh3pa d2edcug0 qv66sw1b c1et5uql a8c37x1j muag1w35 ew0dbk1b jq4qci2q a3bd9o3v knj5qynh oo9gr5id" dir="auto"><span class="oi732d6d ik7dh3pa d2edcug0 qv66sw1b c1et5uql a8c37x1j muag1w35 ew0dbk1b jq4qci2q a3bd9o3v knj5qynh oo9gr5id" dir="auto">It feels so strange to finally see this Boston puzzle assembled. The box is like an old friend that's just kind of always hung around. For about a decade it was the only puzzle in the house until we got one more. So I
remember seeing this puzzle in Joe's apartment when we first met. The
place was an utter dump. He didn't have much, but there was this puzzle. We were just talking about
how the only things we still have from when he lived alone are the bed
frame, a set of very good sheets, his bass and this Boston puzzle. </span>Joe thinks someone gave it to him when he'd decided in senior year to attend Berklee College of Music in Boston. </span><br />
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found this puzzle impossible to do, because the image details are so very
very teeny tiny. I am This-Puzzle-Is-Too-Small years old. Placed here and there around the puzzle are little fun facts, written out in a comic book font that look like the footprints of a fly to me. I could have done it when it first came out, according to the copyright this was published in 1980. Sure, give me my 1980s eyes back. </span></span><br />
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<span class="oi732d6d ik7dh3pa d2edcug0 qv66sw1b c1et5uql a8c37x1j muag1w35 ew0dbk1b jq4qci2q a3bd9o3v knj5qynh oo9gr5id" dir="auto"><span class="oi732d6d ik7dh3pa d2edcug0 qv66sw1b c1et5uql a8c37x1j muag1w35 ew0dbk1b jq4qci2q a3bd9o3v knj5qynh oo9gr5id" dir="auto">Even if I could see
the damn thing, it's too hard. </span>You can't go by the map in your head because this is well before Big Dig, and a lot has changed in Boston in the past 40 years. Buildings and businesses have tiny little signs bearing names I don't recognize. Aside
from a few landmark places like Union Oyster House, few names ring a bell. There's banks I never heard of, building names that don't ring a bell (what's the Stadtler?) and delivery trucks with logos I've never known. Restaurants, too. What's Jimbo's? There was a
German place called Wutzberger? Wut? This whole puzzle was a Wutzberger.</span><br />
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<span class="oi732d6d ik7dh3pa d2edcug0 qv66sw1b c1et5uql a8c37x1j muag1w35 ew0dbk1b jq4qci2q a3bd9o3v knj5qynh oo9gr5id" dir="auto">Joe was curious and looked up </span><span class="oi732d6d ik7dh3pa d2edcug0 qv66sw1b c1et5uql a8c37x1j muag1w35 ew0dbk1b jq4qci2q a3bd9o3v knj5qynh oo9gr5id" dir="auto">Chamberlayne Junior College. We
learned it had closed and merged with Mount Ida College, which then closed too. You never think of colleges closing. They seem so permanent. My college closed last year, in a simpering disgrace after years of dirty tricks with the money. People are truly awful, terrible things. No wonder the planet is wiping us out. Why wouldn't it, we're the worst.∎ </span><br />
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<span style="color: #741b47;"><b><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: x-large;">1</span></span></b></span> At the age of 50, I have discovered that my husband of 17 years is good at jigsaw puzzles. Like really good at jigsaw puzzles. I feel a little weird about it. I thought I was good at jigsaw puzzles. I am not, as it turns out, good at jigsaw puzzles. We may have tapped some hidden talent here. What if this is our ship finally coming in, because I can never do anything the normal way. Is there such a job as Competitive Jigsaw Puzzler Manager Wife? <br />
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<span style="color: #741b47;"><b><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: x-large;">2</span></span></b></span> Our new favorite thing: getting a box of Russell Stover chocolates and having one each night. Tonight I had two. The diet doctor is not going to be happy with me. I need to stop. Not being able to stop will be why I die, unless it's Covid-19. It will probably be first the one, then the other. "But what were her underlying symptoms?" Russell Stover Syndrome. She couldn't stop. So she died.<br />
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<span style="color: #741b47;"><b><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: x-large;">3 </span></span></b></span>I have a question about the movie <i>Trading Places</i>. For example, when Louis-as-Santa comes drunkenly stumbling into Olivia's living room where she's decorating the Christmas tree, he heads for the bathroom, and she calls out, "Louie! When you come out I have a big surprise for you!" What was it? I have several other questions about <i>Trading Places</i>...<br />
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<span style="color: #741b47;"><b><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: x-large;">4 </span></span></b></span>I am giving some consideration to trying beets again. I have friends who love beets now, who at one point hated beets. I have always hated beets. One of my earliest memories is being forced to eat beets and then immediately throwing up purple vomit. But that was decades ago. Maybe I like beets now. No, I probably still hate motherfucking beats. (Gagging at the thought of the talk.) <br />
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<span style="color: #741b47;"><b><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: x-large;">5 </span></span></b></span>I'm exhausted as soon as I wake up. How are you?<br />
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@SuperLowBudgehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13260090440210382714noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4060511618509867300.post-6387464998602904032020-05-12T18:19:00.002-04:002020-05-12T18:23:18.262-04:00I Wish I Could Give My Brain A New Battery<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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<span class="oi732d6d ik7dh3pa d2edcug0 qv66sw1b c1et5uql a8c37x1j muag1w35 ew0dbk1b jq4qci2q a3bd9o3v knj5qynh oo9gr5id" dir="auto">Six years ago my brain broke. I had a breakdown, several stays in the mental ward, so much therapy, both one-on-one and in group. Though I've experienced some good periods, for example I held a part-time job for two and a half years, it's been mostly a grim struggle. I have therapy once a week, sometimes more often. I'm on medication. Every day I feel like I have to start all over again finding my way. My settings got out of whack and there's no manual. My body feels like I'm wearing cement boots and walking in mud and breathing through Jello. My head is encased in an opaque white balloon. My sleep is fraught. I can't work and we need help. So I went ahead and applied for disability. I feel strange about it, but friends and family have been encouraging me to look into it. My team of doctors all think I'll get it. I don't know how these things are decided, but my luck has never been all that great. </span><br />
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<span class="oi732d6d ik7dh3pa d2edcug0 qv66sw1b c1et5uql a8c37x1j muag1w35 ew0dbk1b jq4qci2q a3bd9o3v knj5qynh oo9gr5id" dir="auto">How can I explain my broken brain. It's like the brain in the V-drums Joe has in his studio. That's an electronic drum kit, with physical drums that are fitted with pads that you strike with real drum sticks and it makes a signal that's either a drum sound or any sound you want. Joe has mostly been </span><span class="oi732d6d ik7dh3pa d2edcug0 qv66sw1b c1et5uql a8c37x1j muag1w35 ew0dbk1b jq4qci2q a3bd9o3v knj5qynh oo9gr5id" dir="auto"><span class="oi732d6d ik7dh3pa d2edcug0 qv66sw1b c1et5uql a8c37x1j muag1w35 ew0dbk1b jq4qci2q a3bd9o3v knj5qynh oo9gr5id" dir="auto"><span class="oi732d6d ik7dh3pa d2edcug0 qv66sw1b c1et5uql a8c37x1j muag1w35 ew0dbk1b jq4qci2q a3bd9o3v knj5qynh oo9gr5id" dir="auto">using his V-drums as a MIDI controller for samples in Ableton Live, but he told me that he needs a new battery for t</span></span>he V-drum "brain." Its "brain" is like the digital traffic cop that sets and controls the signal. Well, that brain's</span><span class="oi732d6d ik7dh3pa d2edcug0 qv66sw1b c1et5uql a8c37x1j muag1w35 ew0dbk1b jq4qci2q a3bd9o3v knj5qynh oo9gr5id" dir="auto"> battery has been dead for a while. What's happening is that settings that have been set aren't there when the brain boots back up and need to be re-set every time. That's how I feel in the morning after spending a nightmare-filled night after spending all day doing self-care and trying not to nap. Then I do it all over again. I hope I filled out the disability paperwork correctly. It was really hard to do because I don't have any focus whatsoever.∎</span>@SuperLowBudgehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13260090440210382714noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4060511618509867300.post-62741422313321154202020-05-11T22:37:00.000-04:002020-05-15T21:57:10.427-04:00Remember DrawSomething?Here is a gallery of my favorite DrawSomething drawings from a long time ago when I used to play this game.<br />
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<br />@SuperLowBudgehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13260090440210382714noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4060511618509867300.post-90086119805001358802020-05-11T20:03:00.001-04:002020-05-14T21:23:17.370-04:00My Father I Haven't Met<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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see a family resemblance to the 20-year old guy on the far right. </span></div>
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<span class="oi732d6d ik7dh3pa d2edcug0 qv66sw1b c1et5uql a8c37x1j muag1w35 ew0dbk1b jq4qci2q a3bd9o3v knj5qynh oo9gr5id hzawbc8m" dir="auto">That's my actual father, Ralph Onofrio. This
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@SuperLowBudgehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13260090440210382714noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4060511618509867300.post-21621470497439250552020-05-10T19:11:00.000-04:002020-05-10T22:24:53.424-04:00My Mom Will Make Me Take This Down<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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This beautiful picture of my mom was taken by my Aunt Sharon, at a funeral a few months ago. Grandma Lombardi died. If you're thinking, "Leopard print and red, at a funeral?" you'd need to know that Grandma Lombardi would have loved this look, right down to the red lipstick. The old lady had pizazz and, I think, always liked my mother's style. That's another thing that's great about my mother: style for <i>days</i>. Happy Mother's Day, JoAnna. <br />
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<span class="oi732d6d ik7dh3pa d2edcug0 qv66sw1b c1et5uql a8c37x1j muag1w35 ew0dbk1b jq4qci2q a3bd9o3v knj5qynh oo9gr5id" dir="auto">I told Joe that this year I'm incorporating him into the blog more in a section called The Joe Chronicles. He's so funny and talented and I love his writing. Here's what he wrote about my parents.</span><br />
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<span class="oi732d6d ik7dh3pa d2edcug0 qv66sw1b c1et5uql a8c37x1j muag1w35 ew0dbk1b jq4qci2q a3bd9o3v knj5qynh oo9gr5id" dir="auto"><span style="font-family: "Courier New", Courier, monospace;">JOE KOWALKSI </span></span></h3>
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<span class="oi732d6d ik7dh3pa d2edcug0 qv66sw1b c1et5uql a8c37x1j muag1w35 ew0dbk1b jq4qci2q a3bd9o3v knj5qynh oo9gr5id" dir="auto"><span style="font-family: "Courier New", Courier, monospace;">They're
the coolest/ sweetest. When I first met them it was over an extended
holiday trip visiting first my family and then hers. By the time we were
arriving at their place in rural CT, it was getting late, we'd had some
traffic, and were overall pretty tense/ stressed. (Who has two thumbs
and is pointing at himself? ME!) Before we even got to the front door,
the door was open and they were calling out lovingly. When I got to the
door, I got huge hugs, a glass of red wine was placed in my hand, and a
pipe of fragrant green was offered. Within a half hour we were all
laughing and talking and drinking and smoking and relaxed and I was
playing their piano and her mom suddenly said, "You know what? That's
your piano! We're giving it to you! We'll work out the details, but it's
yours!" And that's how I got my antique baby grand piano from my
wonderful in-laws.</span>🥰<span class="q9uorilb tbxw36s4 knj5qynh kvgmc6g5 ditlmg2l oygrvhab nvdbi5me fgm26odu gl3lb2sf hhz5lgdu"></span></span>@SuperLowBudgehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13260090440210382714noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4060511618509867300.post-41329538787114605292020-05-06T20:47:00.003-04:002020-05-07T20:48:05.122-04:00Dear Anti-Mask Knuckleheads Strutting Around Outside<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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BOSTON - Being asked to wear a mask as a courtesy wasn't good enough for you, so now your selfishness had to be countered with a law. As of today, everyone over two years old must be wearing a mask when out in public. You're still fighting about it. What don't you understand? The masks are for the good of public safety, to prevent runaway spread of a goddamn contagious, deadly pathogen for which there is no cure. Over 70,000 people are dead in six weeks. If you can't do this one simple thing for the greater good, that's all I need to know about you. You are showing that you could never be counted on in a crisis. Protesting, what's wrong with you? You think that makes you look strong? You can't handle a minor inconvenience for the sake of your country. You are weak. It's offensive.∎@SuperLowBudgehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13260090440210382714noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4060511618509867300.post-48481597772241021662020-04-30T15:56:00.001-04:002020-04-30T16:08:35.020-04:00The Big Clench: Grateful Thru Anxiety<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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<span class="oi732d6d ik7dh3pa d2edcug0 qv66sw1b c1et5uql a8c37x1j muag1w35 ew0dbk1b jq4qci2q a3bd9o3v knj5qynh oo9gr5id hzawbc8m" dir="auto">My stomach is constantly clenching and aching. I'm scared and anxious. But I'm trying not to fixate on the horror and instead be grateful. I am grateful for so many things. I am grateful that:</span><br />
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<li><span class="oi732d6d ik7dh3pa d2edcug0 qv66sw1b c1et5uql a8c37x1j muag1w35 ew0dbk1b jq4qci2q a3bd9o3v knj5qynh oo9gr5id hzawbc8m" dir="auto">I cook. </span></li>
<li><span class="oi732d6d ik7dh3pa d2edcug0 qv66sw1b c1et5uql a8c37x1j muag1w35 ew0dbk1b jq4qci2q a3bd9o3v knj5qynh oo9gr5id hzawbc8m" dir="auto">I cut my own hair, and Joe's hair too.</span></li>
<li><span class="oi732d6d ik7dh3pa d2edcug0 qv66sw1b c1et5uql a8c37x1j muag1w35 ew0dbk1b jq4qci2q a3bd9o3v knj5qynh oo9gr5id hzawbc8m" dir="auto">I love where I live.</span></li>
<li><span class="oi732d6d ik7dh3pa d2edcug0 qv66sw1b c1et5uql a8c37x1j muag1w35 ew0dbk1b jq4qci2q a3bd9o3v knj5qynh oo9gr5id hzawbc8m" dir="auto">We can still afford cable TV kinda.</span></li>
<li><span class="oi732d6d ik7dh3pa d2edcug0 qv66sw1b c1et5uql a8c37x1j muag1w35 ew0dbk1b jq4qci2q a3bd9o3v knj5qynh oo9gr5id hzawbc8m" dir="auto">I married my best friend. </span></li>
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<b><span class="oi732d6d ik7dh3pa d2edcug0 qv66sw1b c1et5uql a8c37x1j muag1w35 ew0dbk1b jq4qci2q a3bd9o3v knj5qynh oo9gr5id hzawbc8m" dir="auto">I cook.</span></b><br />
<span class="oi732d6d ik7dh3pa d2edcug0 qv66sw1b c1et5uql a8c37x1j muag1w35 ew0dbk1b jq4qci2q a3bd9o3v knj5qynh oo9gr5id hzawbc8m" dir="auto">We're living extremely lean because I haven't worked steadily in several years. Since I had my nervous breakdown in February 2014, I was no longer the higher earner in the household and we cut a lot out. No more eating out, no more ordering in, no fancy shopping excursions, none of that. I'd love to support local restaurants, but between being SO broke and my mental health, I've been cooking at home most of the time. It's rare to eat food that I haven't cooked. Thankful that preparing all our meals is no added hardship, I was already doing that.</span><br />
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<b><span class="oi732d6d ik7dh3pa d2edcug0 qv66sw1b c1et5uql a8c37x1j muag1w35 ew0dbk1b jq4qci2q a3bd9o3v knj5qynh oo9gr5id hzawbc8m" dir="auto">I cut my own hair, and Joe's hair too.</span></b><br />
<span class="oi732d6d ik7dh3pa d2edcug0 qv66sw1b c1et5uql a8c37x1j muag1w35 ew0dbk1b jq4qci2q a3bd9o3v knj5qynh oo9gr5id hzawbc8m" dir="auto">I was lucky. All growing up my mom cut everyone's hair. Family, friends and actual paying customers. She did it in our kitchen and I hung around listening to adults talk. I swept up the hair. Whenever she had someone sitting in the chair, I could see what my mom was doing: dampening the comb, separating the head into sections with big clips, using two fingers to take small sections of hair and cut across or use upward snipping motions, depending. I've always kept a nice pair of scissors designed for hair cutting, I don't recommend using those big kitchen scissors, sewing shears or the kind used for crafts. Like anything else, get the right tool for the job. </span><span class="oi732d6d ik7dh3pa d2edcug0 qv66sw1b c1et5uql a8c37x1j muag1w35 ew0dbk1b jq4qci2q a3bd9o3v knj5qynh oo9gr5id hzawbc8m" dir="auto"><span class="oi732d6d ik7dh3pa d2edcug0 qv66sw1b c1et5uql a8c37x1j muag1w35 ew0dbk1b jq4qci2q a3bd9o3v knj5qynh oo9gr5id hzawbc8m" dir="auto">I don't expect everyone to be able to cut his or her own hair, but I can do it. Aside from once in college and once back in 2013, I've always cut it myself. </span></span><span class="oi732d6d ik7dh3pa d2edcug0 qv66sw1b c1et5uql a8c37x1j muag1w35 ew0dbk1b jq4qci2q a3bd9o3v knj5qynh oo9gr5id hzawbc8m" dir="auto"><span class="oi732d6d ik7dh3pa d2edcug0 qv66sw1b c1et5uql a8c37x1j muag1w35 ew0dbk1b jq4qci2q a3bd9o3v knj5qynh oo9gr5id hzawbc8m" dir="auto"> I prefer cutting my hair myself actually. I must acknowledge that my hair is particularly kind, so I consider it almost mistake-proof. My hair is easy. Joe's is easy, too. He's got long super-straight hair like Marcia Brady. Thankful that we are not missing "getting a haircut" because I was already cutting our hair at home anyway.</span></span><br />
<span class="oi732d6d ik7dh3pa d2edcug0 qv66sw1b c1et5uql a8c37x1j muag1w35 ew0dbk1b jq4qci2q a3bd9o3v knj5qynh oo9gr5id hzawbc8m" dir="auto"><span class="oi732d6d ik7dh3pa d2edcug0 qv66sw1b c1et5uql a8c37x1j muag1w35 ew0dbk1b jq4qci2q a3bd9o3v knj5qynh oo9gr5id hzawbc8m" dir="auto"><br /></span></span>
<b><span class="oi732d6d ik7dh3pa d2edcug0 qv66sw1b c1et5uql a8c37x1j muag1w35 ew0dbk1b jq4qci2q a3bd9o3v knj5qynh oo9gr5id hzawbc8m" dir="auto"><span class="oi732d6d ik7dh3pa d2edcug0 qv66sw1b c1et5uql a8c37x1j muag1w35 ew0dbk1b jq4qci2q a3bd9o3v knj5qynh oo9gr5id hzawbc8m" dir="auto">I love where I live. </span></span></b><br />
<span class="oi732d6d ik7dh3pa d2edcug0 qv66sw1b c1et5uql a8c37x1j muag1w35 ew0dbk1b jq4qci2q a3bd9o3v knj5qynh oo9gr5id hzawbc8m" dir="auto"><span class="oi732d6d ik7dh3pa d2edcug0 qv66sw1b c1et5uql a8c37x1j muag1w35 ew0dbk1b jq4qci2q a3bd9o3v knj5qynh oo9gr5id hzawbc8m" dir="auto">Our apartment is small by my mom's standards, but it's not as small as our old place. We love it here. It'll be ten years in November that we've lived here, and we absolutely tell each other how lucky we are on a regular basis. We have a baby grand piano that is not "in the way" whatsoever, so we must be okay for space, right? We have every kind of instrument including a drum kit. Two, actually, if you count the V-drums in Joe's studio. Just the fact that he has studio where he can go and make music, or just play video games. Amazingly I have my own space too, in what's considered "the sunroom" so that means my little studio has got tons of natural light. Each having our own space means we can have as much "alone time" as needed. We have hundreds of books, art books, art supplies, modeling clay, and lots of doll-making and sewing supplies. We have so many records and CDs, plus a Sonos where lots of those records and CDs are digitized. We have board games, jigsaw puzzles, and crossword puzzles and space to play. There's a chess game always set up on its own little chess table. Our kitchen is well-equipped for all kinds of cooking...mostly thanks to Joe's mom who gifts us appliances all the time. We have a back porch where we can sit and watch the birds, eat or play a game, have chats with neighbors on either side or downstairs. I am so, so grateful to love where I live that the depth of gratitude brings me to tears. </span></span><span class="oi732d6d ik7dh3pa d2edcug0 qv66sw1b c1et5uql a8c37x1j muag1w35 ew0dbk1b jq4qci2q a3bd9o3v knj5qynh oo9gr5id hzawbc8m" dir="auto"><span class="oi732d6d ik7dh3pa d2edcug0 qv66sw1b c1et5uql a8c37x1j muag1w35 ew0dbk1b jq4qci2q a3bd9o3v knj5qynh oo9gr5id hzawbc8m" dir="auto"><span class="oi732d6d ik7dh3pa d2edcug0 qv66sw1b c1et5uql a8c37x1j muag1w35 ew0dbk1b jq4qci2q a3bd9o3v knj5qynh oo9gr5id hzawbc8m" dir="auto">Like I said, we have been living extremely lean because I haven't worked in a long time, so no outings to things like concerts, movies, plays or anything. <i>Nothing </i>is what we can afford and it's been this way for a long time. So </span>I'm grateful that we're not missing "going out" because we were already staying home and entertaining ourselves anyway.</span></span><br />
<span class="oi732d6d ik7dh3pa d2edcug0 qv66sw1b c1et5uql a8c37x1j muag1w35 ew0dbk1b jq4qci2q a3bd9o3v knj5qynh oo9gr5id hzawbc8m" dir="auto"><span class="oi732d6d ik7dh3pa d2edcug0 qv66sw1b c1et5uql a8c37x1j muag1w35 ew0dbk1b jq4qci2q a3bd9o3v knj5qynh oo9gr5id hzawbc8m" dir="auto"><br /></span></span>
<b><span class="oi732d6d ik7dh3pa d2edcug0 qv66sw1b c1et5uql a8c37x1j muag1w35 ew0dbk1b jq4qci2q a3bd9o3v knj5qynh oo9gr5id hzawbc8m" dir="auto"><span class="oi732d6d ik7dh3pa d2edcug0 qv66sw1b c1et5uql a8c37x1j muag1w35 ew0dbk1b jq4qci2q a3bd9o3v knj5qynh oo9gr5id hzawbc8m" dir="auto">We can still afford cable TV kinda.</span></span></b><br />
<span class="oi732d6d ik7dh3pa d2edcug0 qv66sw1b c1et5uql a8c37x1j muag1w35 ew0dbk1b jq4qci2q a3bd9o3v knj5qynh oo9gr5id hzawbc8m" dir="auto"><span class="oi732d6d ik7dh3pa d2edcug0 qv66sw1b c1et5uql a8c37x1j muag1w35 ew0dbk1b jq4qci2q a3bd9o3v knj5qynh oo9gr5id hzawbc8m" dir="auto">It's $200 per month for Xfinity TV and Internet, and for that astonishingly high dollar amount, we don't even get most of the movie channels. So I'm lost when people talk about anything on HBO or anything like that. We don't have Amazon Prime, either. But we do have really strong, fast Internet and with that we watch Netflix, Hulu, Shudder and now Joe's thinking about adding Britbox for $6.99/month. Interestingly we have not binge-watched a single thing in this whole six weeks since being locked down. But it's nice to have it, and are lucky that we can still kind of afford that $200 every month for basic service. It's too much, isn't it? Am I high or is it ridiculous that every household pays this much for cable and Internet?</span></span><br />
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<b><span class="oi732d6d ik7dh3pa d2edcug0 qv66sw1b c1et5uql a8c37x1j muag1w35 ew0dbk1b jq4qci2q a3bd9o3v knj5qynh oo9gr5id hzawbc8m" dir="auto"><span class="oi732d6d ik7dh3pa d2edcug0 qv66sw1b c1et5uql a8c37x1j muag1w35 ew0dbk1b jq4qci2q a3bd9o3v knj5qynh oo9gr5id hzawbc8m" dir="auto">I married my best friend.</span></span></b><br />
<span class="oi732d6d ik7dh3pa d2edcug0 qv66sw1b c1et5uql a8c37x1j muag1w35 ew0dbk1b jq4qci2q a3bd9o3v knj5qynh oo9gr5id hzawbc8m" dir="auto"><span class="oi732d6d ik7dh3pa d2edcug0 qv66sw1b c1et5uql a8c37x1j muag1w35 ew0dbk1b jq4qci2q a3bd9o3v knj5qynh oo9gr5id hzawbc8m" dir="auto">This lockdown situation is a tough testing ground for relationships. But I love that Joe's working from home, and we're not sick of each other, and everything is good. That's the thing I'm most grateful for: my amazing husband. Going out to get us supplies (all masked up) and making me coffee every morning, singing praise for everything that I cook or prepare. When Joe doesn't know in advance what I'm making, he eats my food and goes, "I didn't even KNOW this is what I wanted!" Every soup is "the best one you've ever made" and sometimes he does a little happy dance in the kitchen. I mean...you guys, what? I'm so lucky. </span></span><br />
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<span class="oi732d6d ik7dh3pa d2edcug0 qv66sw1b c1et5uql a8c37x1j muag1w35 ew0dbk1b jq4qci2q a3bd9o3v knj5qynh oo9gr5id hzawbc8m" dir="auto"><span class="oi732d6d ik7dh3pa d2edcug0 qv66sw1b c1et5uql a8c37x1j muag1w35 ew0dbk1b jq4qci2q a3bd9o3v knj5qynh oo9gr5id hzawbc8m" dir="auto">But even with all of this gratitude and amazing luck, I'm all clenched with disturbing bouts of anxiety, and depression. My stomach hurts and I have a headache. My psychiatrist increased my meds on our last telehealth call so we'll see if that helps. Since Joe's home, he gives me reassuring hugs all day long, which helps. Most of all I'm lucky to be on the right side of the grass for now. ∎</span></span>@SuperLowBudgehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13260090440210382714noreply@blogger.com0